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I don’t know if i can make it this time…
•1 August, 2010 • Leave a CommentLots of work, restore, save, tons of videos… I wasn’t fully awared about my legacy. A new era filled with real stuff, dunno if i’ll b able…
Yet it’s our place and i shan’t let it die. Once again deceived by video hosting places, i will restore peace 2 this place full of wrath and tears. Uploading and checkin ol’ posts
As this place is me, a quest 2 get everything back 2 normal. We’ll try.
Despite our tons of responsibilities, new duties, househusbandcy and yeah some shit like that.
No blogfade…
•26 July, 2010 • 1 CommentTime 4 big changes, i can’t say it’s a fresh start but it’s something huge we still gotta see if i’m able 2 deal with it. Scared a lil bit yet time 2
Far from the shell I used 2 live in
a magical bubble where ppl used 2 b happy. A small town crowned with a golden green hill where I used 2 have friends and where money used 2 flourished…
Now? I’ve got a splitting headache from which the future is made.
Givin up has crossed my mind but I shan’t let LI fade, not now. I need enlightenment as well as some…
Videos r better than songs @ explaining stuff, don’t u think?
The secret?
•6 June, 2010 • Leave a CommentDunno… it could be Titanium dioxide or Hawaiian shirts
Y esa carita feliz de ahi es el sol, brillando sobre el titanio
Perhaps it’s just the dumb and silly ability 2 keep on smilin. Also ignorin stuff like ‘grow up’ or ‘immature’ yet laughter has worked perfectly… U ought 2 try.
Works 4 me.
Now we get 2 know colors r hazardous 😦
Bad 4 our hearth??
Lapsus Kuku – 26/26 – other oddities
•6 June, 2010 • Leave a Comment
May was time 4 an irrelevant week when we were continuously affected by what i’ve called Lapsus Kuku. A flamboyant term 4 such condition when I lost part of my consciousness, disrupting reality the process is not funny. Well maybe it is when u r witnessin.
Bein high. U really think is cool? Enterin a limbo where the words turn 2 ashes and the sounds is nothing but whisperin voices whose speech is not clear. I’m still stickin 2 the idea that is is not 2 worry about it however this month’s unusual state of mind was not cool.
These micro naps r b4 my awaken eyes, present 4 a couple of minutes til I’m able 2 snap out of it. The curioscary thing about these last Kukus last longer and kept comin 4 @ least a week. I wonder if it’s high time I defied reality.
Aren’t u all part of a set kinda planned in advance? ‘cause everythin really seems 2 b there… handy. Like a dream, ppl and stuff seems 2 good 2 true…
I’m just miserable.
Either way we’ve lost balance in here we r not supposed 2 b goin tru the whole thing. I’ve never worshipped any kind of pagan nor unpagan Gods therefore no curses shall b fallin upon me. How can I get rid of it? Get a twilife instead.
Didn’t know how cool was that. A departure on its way, time 4 a change. To leave my comfort zone but at the same time I’ll try not to perish. Gifts and worries, plan and uncertainties. Who am i? Where has all the plan guy gone?
As I was sayin, there’s no balance in here n the twins don’t like it…
26/26
Not feelin older, let’s just say time goes by faster. A couple of meetings. Rendezvous with the old blokes
4 a couple of good soirees. Never thought it would end so early let’s say…@ 6 am. Celebratin with booze and food excess, guess the only good thing about it was the chance 2 hang out with my ‘friends’. Kinda worried about it, sigh… i dunno if i miss the whole gang (highly unlikely). Yet it’s cool just 2 laugh @ non sense or waitin 4 the sun.
Amigos de verdad?
The next day came and surprise knocked @ my door, it was family time in a far away land. Wii 4 quite awhile with my cousins, the family i deny seemed 2 b quite friendly and the same time we realized we r so different. Had a good time though, wonderin about why can’t the government set benefit on chicken pescuezos?
Guess i can hardly deal with placebos, oregano is not my thing
Yet the fumes allow ppl 2 burst out laughin, many hours 4 a xtreme soccer session peppered with the Malayan style. Mourinho play may seem borin but effecient.
The week passed and the 26/26 came. A year older but not wiser, let’s just say more into adulthood where the theatre days r far away along with Mr. Sandman’s time.
We can state those precious times when there was nothing 2 worry about r gone into the land of ghosts. Mirages, fields with no predators r just fulfillin an illusion about keepin things under my command. 26/26 was gone in a blink of an eye a couple of gifts and cool time with the people i like yet the old Wolf deserves no attention @ all. Wonder why do they take care of me?
Then what? I was dragged 2 some sort of alibi 4 some so called moral debts which r there in some sort of limbo
Nobody cares 4 these, guess u r marked or cursed. Not my doin, feel the way u wanna feel yet there’s no blood 2 b repaid. Futile efforts since i never 4give, we need 2 keep this charade.
Attendance 2 nonsense, strange days where I witnessed depression and roar, God’s wrath in a couple of blue cases, shouldn’t b this way. My friend’s sadness perturbed my delicate sensitive balance. Speakin of delicate, there’s no health and sanity when u try 2 snooze aside such rumbling.
Long time and exhaustin tasks even 4 a never forgettin wonderin mind. Rewards like xtreme 0ne day long recognition. 4 what? Deserve n0thing as I’ve just been ineffective. @ the same time Los Iluminados serve 4 no purpose, we’ve lost our ability of planning. Our lack of ambition has been criticized. The way we r, our goals and the things we’ve been tru so far. Future ?
What future r u xpecting ? Where’s ur eternity? How can u b so sure about a tomorrow’s comin?
Speak 4 urselves. Me is not so sure, have 2 deal with these seizures like painful headache causin micro-naps. Have u ever tried a symbiosis with an unknown source which has enabled epilepsy-like episodes? This unknown source lures in some other kind of limbo
Condition which requires daily attention @ 9 and @ 3 otherwise i lost my mind. Literally.
Have 2 deal with uncertainty and concerns, fatigue?
Like stabbin needles in my back along with those unwanted memories haulin my head. Under many many pressure, not 2 forget my stupid workbook which got lost.
Yet if we’ve been able 2 keep it sane all the way 2 this point, if we’ve been capable of visualizing a life away. Let’s wait and see.
Once again there’s no need 2 feel blue nor depressed. Even though we’ve caught by the new markets economy, dealing with the ‘unpositive thinking’ of emo like generations drowned by economical breakdowns, trapped in a monotonous job and enjoyin a heatwave, youtube tryin 2 kick me out, my enemies…
I don’t care i’m enjoyin the whole thing
So whenever u get 2 feel bad just be thankful 4 what u’ve got and 4 what u’ve lived. Since i have already seen the light thrice… i like 2 remember and get lost
Los Iluminados
P.s. Ya encontraron mi workbook.
Power, titles, money… nothing
•11 May, 2010 • Leave a Comment
As i have gazed deep within the eyes of a Young lost lad, whose time seems 2 b overwhelmin . Sandstorms where we got lost confused and disoriented. He may reflect upon so called human societies yet he is avoidin vanity and corruption. He’s been the one. The one and only aware of his surroundings. Aware yes but @ the same time unable 2 fully comprehend the reasons of sufferin. No need 2 complain, since there’s no reward on it. Prayers won’t b heard and then u realize u r the only choice, escape pods have only been a temporary solution. So u gotta deal with it. Some sort of communism.
Everything has already been invented, we may b impressed by uncommon stuff though. Like brown cars or xenophobic laws.
I stick 2 my tea no matter how stupid my race is. Hey jerks, no visa no America!! Is that hard 2 understand? Nothin as I said, why we were endowed with such unusual lone star state of mind, a condition which has lead us 2 realize… well u name it. Unfortunately we’ve got 2 acquire several kinds of knowledge and sometimes we r unable 2 leave it there. Insatiable just like that entity known as Brainiac… sigh.
Havin said this, it’s clear 2 me, we’ve faced uncomfortable facts and situations which r unbearable ,riddles which have made us wonder and wander how come it’s possible. Definitely this is not our nature as species. We’ve boasted stuff like ‘easily defeatable’ or The Legends, vendetta and good Leon. Perhaps no one will understand the Wolf. U say i seem sad?
Scio me nihil scire or scio me nescire not even myself.
No one will save us, since i dunno where i belong. Fake righteousness, humble evil.
Harder when u lack of soul, like American coke. Complainin is just part of my heritage, surrender and give in 2 the circumstances… no money, no food, nothing.
We may witness some sparks in this God’s forgotten piece of desolate tract. Lil 2 cheer up we barely manage 2 deal with it. As any possible reward means nothing but smoke and mirrors pls 4give this lad’s glum appreciation. Exhausted and overwhelmed. Symptoms will b banished 4 awhile into the land of ghosts during my enlightening Chak Mol moments. Mementos do their thing 2. We try, we certainly do yet where’s ur eternity? The never endin battle… 2 smart 2 enjoy some mankind dumb pleasure yet 2 imbecile 2 face divine reality. Here we r. Despite the rubble on my self, we shall not decay
Survived major lessons yet lil was learnt. U shall beware the wolf whose principles lie within the watchtower code. Justice and revenge. Why can’t we keep it fair and square? Now where was I, oh yeah we also have 2 b sure of sealin that Pandora’s box. Wish that seal is never broken again, I didn’t like what I had 2 face that’s why I shall close my eyes. Unleashin inner demons is not good 4 anybody.
Having failed @ holdin back this huge wave, my baie uncertainty overwhelmed me 4 awhile. Weeped, lost in adulthood related matters which I won’t discuss anymore. Several signs against my dreams r holdin me back, I’m considerin a plan B as I don’t wanna get disillusioned with overconfidence.
Puer guidance is blindin me?
2 make things worse…
Stupid Tolocan warmin
Still alive and sane. Couple of coins in my pocket. We’ll b fine that’s 4 sure.
Sugar is the answer, it has always been…
I had a meal 2day
•18 April, 2010 • 1 CommentOh boy and though the news was rather sad well I just had 2 realize… Money time has 2 come, @ least 4 me. I have survived these times of greed but I don’t actually enjoy them, there’s no glee on it. How could u compare the 1 and only taste of a cold canned coke? Quite an extra gusto, 1 of those details that have kept alive and well and livin in Toluca. @ least I used 2 think so… Now the Aztec Gold curse is upon me. Guess I’ll b switchin 2 a healthier choice.
Unexpectedly there was 1 of those old-fashioned blue Sundays, haven’t seen 1 of those in awhile. Escape from reality, just like Farrokh Bulsara said. No askin and isolatin myself in my claustrophobic lair. Guess that’ll do fine 4 awhile. Nevertheless it’s sad 2 realize Hakuna Matata is not cool. It hits hard, there’s no way 2 escape unless u r adopted by a white rich family. Hmmm… highly unlikely.
Not 4 me, no anymore.
So here am I dealin with sensitive losses and unknown future, sighin and wonderin 4 that bloodless soldier, wishin he could come. Guns and thunder which remind me of better days only witnessed in some blurry dreams.
There’s some stuff which is not balanced yet I’ve got no idea what it may be. No matter whose fault it is but what the solution can b. Slavery is a variable which is not enough despite recognition however I’m not fallin 4 that 1. Shown recognition sounds fake and I know I don’t deserve it. In the other hand truth pains me so… like a slap in the face, I’m aware of the whole thing. That’s just me, we know I can handle it yet pressure, stress and many x/y variables won’t let me go tru it, past dues will taser me from time 2 time but forget about it @ least awhile. Happiness and family comes 1st no one cares 4 a goddamn piece of pork.
Banished 4 humanity, I’ve tried 2 b reinserted in so called human societies and 4 a time this have been cool. Despite my childish immature and self-indulgent features I’ve managed 2 succeed in many plans, unexplainably they have worked out pretty well. Lost in some memories, wonderin about teeny moments and considerin
We have faced some rocks in the way. In the end we overcome and others fail, Ppl who has dared face Los Iluminados have fallen namelessly b4 the light we brought. All of ‘em have never fought back… Sounds fishy indeed and I’ve got no idea if r they goin 2 strike back. If I’ve already won this battle then I gotta say it was 2 easy. Unless my archrivals r already up 2 something
What a nightmare!!
Perhaps I shall stop livin in my castle in the sky world
If that was the case guess I’ll lose my baie essence. Many claim there’s no such and I just happen 2 emulate my surroundings yet Los Iluminados radiance differs of ur vision. An escape pod where I can hide and worship my inner thoughts mixed with pop culture. Believe and plan, a place where nobody dared to go and now, open your eyes and see what we have made is real. A dream of it, we offer you, a million lines are dwellin, an everlasting world and you’re here with me. Love and hatred, justice and revenge and the echoes of long ago,
I needed the world to know
I liked the desert… How would u call that? Clicheish?
Miss Gotham City 2…
Time 2 snap out of it, livin off old glories is only 4 Uruguayans…
Dreams came through the years. They lived on through some dry tears. The dream you dream… A plan I don’t have…
Or do i?
Nevertheless sometimes there’s no need 2 lift a finger. Love when stuff gets solved on its own
Wonder how is it possible, the wise way will b 2 keep on swearin
When all else fails we can whip the wolves’ eyes and make them sleep
•6 April, 2010 • Leave a CommentA place 2 hide 4 awhile but I don’t need any European tour I just need this break…Which man? The landlord. Nevertheless I promise my work will continue, no aims or goals 4 now… Not my fault since the proper tools r gone with the wind.
Spring break, perhaps this week will do just fine although this seems highly unlikely… troubles won’t go away, neither will debts, I’ll b left behind and my projects will still stand by. Ppl will say it’s my fault yet again there’ll be lil recognition. Lil by lil everything that makes life bearable has been taken away from me and 4 now I can’t face it. It’s not that I’m avoidin my fate, right now we’ve been shown playing Hey Arnold is not a good thing 2 do. In fact this has only weakened my old spirit.
No lo tiene en rubio?
It’s impossible, an endless duty. This task is not 4 me nor 4 Zorro nor 4 Justice League… we r destined 2 b miserable ‘cause that human’s nature. @ least 1 of them.
Miserable along the wolvesque attitude, since I’m already defeated guess there’s no need 2 fight back. I know it shouldn’t b this way, I know I used 2 believe in the good old days… I still do in lil ways. However this is not Wonderland. Only a couple of sanctuaries left which btw have been losin their strength. Is just like food and drinks, although they used 2 b good now…
It’s the antilife, in my case there’s no joy on it. It’s just a big Limbo (not the beachy-like game).
Blessings, my own blessings which I have let go. We only notice what we’ve got until it’s lost into oblivion. Easy 4 ur guys but wolf can’t forget.Material world boy
Trust & hope were first, those terms now r considered fantasy.
As I’m getting older I can only witness and acknowledge how my essence means nothing. U may only discern some funny and @ the same time disturbed layers, worry do not since ancient werewolf won’t mean u any harm.
No talent = hollow soul… is there such thing. Nevertheless
Is that so? I dunno what Krauser is talkin about unless he is referring 2 that weird-lookin scar in my thumb. Confused and overwhelmed with master behaviorism which reigns over westerners… Tired of daily bread.
This leads us 2 those guidelines of what we should and what we shouldn’t do
No
Cryin, as it only implies losin precious salty water. U may cry when there’s nothing else 2 do, picture a gang of fist sims surrounding u in a dark alley.
Prayin… no magic powers r bestowed on u if u worship stones, crosses or action figures since most of religions won’t work as magic lamps. In fact wide loads of blasphemy have turned the cross against me. 1st there’s no way wine can b my blood, if that was the case I prefer Coke and I’m already fed up with bread. 2 bad now someone have designed a round table against me.
Luckily, the possible founders of that pact r coward standbyers.What we should do is very lil, let’s say I can’t be concerned 24X7 so let’s take it easy baby, 1st of all take it as it comes, I can’t comply all ur demands. I shall fight from my comfort zone. Keep it simple, one step @ a time, the only way I know…
That’s me and it’s quite tricky 2 change it, nay impossible. In the end I only swear allegiance 2 my classes despite my underachiever attitude
Don’t get me wrong though, I might seem bleak again yet my therapy is doin fine so as my job they had kept me as sane as I can b. I’ve even survived without my obsessions. Doin fine this week off. Wii excess and missed the net. However what I was I need most was my babe…
Goddess of time, grant us one more divine intervention, make them understand. The world on u depends so our lives will never end.
Mine? Maybe its sparkle was turned off long ago when I used 2 b completely happy, guess it’s 2 much 2 ask 4… Those were the days…
Now we only chase temporary sublime times but I’m unable 2 tell if that’s gonna last. I can’t ensure if we r gonna get it. No recognition and no talent only leads me towards emptiness, ignorance is not bliss as it has brought anxiety and adulthood in a poky flicky way.
I have no plan and that’s not supposed 2 b. I’m workin 4 no profit… yet we shall not erase my smile. Gonzo and his chicks r right. It’s good 2 know most of the times I’m mistaken. I know I’ve said no one likes their jobs… but me. I consider myself another zealot of good old ancient teaching methods, I may not use any extra materials as other teachers do and I won’t certainly wear a Barney’s costume but it’s good 2 know I do my thing and the guys like it. Any rewards? Wage and the fact classes r 1 of my therapies. What do u know? Old Lone wolf likes 2 b surrounded. A place where I can show off my lil knowledge.
Wonder how they live there in Bohemia… Such wisdom
Goddess of time, grant us one more divine intervention, make them understand. The world on u depends so our lives will never end. The end has already come 4 us, u know… as i praise the greatness i still have, i cry 4 the ones i’ve lost. Nothing can break your heart worse than longing for things that might have been.
Other than that… what about another line of the farm? It’s still gaining power, what’s next? Farmville squaredance?
I might add
•6 April, 2010 • Leave a CommentThe antilife equation is also missing…
Sadness, loneliness, extreme worrying, starvation and no tegretol. Mix’em and u’ll get a great cocktail
2 bad i hate drinkin… Not feelin fine, hopefully extra shots of LA Wonka will help me out.
Let the children play
•22 March, 2010 • Leave a CommentIf u give this scenario a ride… Well the pieces r set and they r on their move whether u r just a pawn, play like a bishop or u stand still like the king and queen. It depends on how the game is goin on. Obviously it’s easier 2 b just a marionette but that way u lose freedom unless u prefer 2 b an almighty King, u got the power and @ the same time responsible 4 ur servants.
I know i know, the same old bleak talk over and over… Whether i’m the sufferin Kal-El, the almost abandoned and never comprehended Kryptonian. Not sad, let’s say worried and there’s one 2 blame here, no 2010 year old carpenter, nor Karma. Not even myself this is not my fault but i’m closely involved in this riddle. The game is not over, let’s just say our cheat code has lost some efficiency. What have they done to Cumbres? What have they done 2 our fair business? Ravaged and plundered and ripped her and bit them, stuck them with knives in the side of the dawn and tied them with fences and dragged her down.
The only good thing about it’s that I still hear a gentle sound
Other than that I guess there’s no valid point 2 stick around, it’s not comfy anymore u know. We wanted the world now. Yet it seems we r out. It’s scary 2 think about abandonin the dream
A place where I used 2 b a King-jester
Now everyday we have 2 deal with evil eyes or some lecturing why? I dunno…
I could stay here and 4 a time that would b good, however good is not enough. Still givin it a second, third a zillionth thought I’m unable 2 chase the rabbit into total darkness as I have some scores 2 settle, cross swords against myself
What 4? We’ve been shown how recognition
It’s just I can’t walk away untested as I’m anchored and attached 2 this place. Not my fault however I shall consider this advice. I really want 2 go but right now that’s off my hands.
How 2 cope with our nowadays situation? I found out I have a wii. Facing a facebook… Yes Dee… 3 years from that March madness now.
I’ve solved the antilife equation and luckily Darkseid is not after me, nevertheless livin this reality is not a good idea. No proper meal consumption and the last soccer shirt. Old acquaintances remind me of my Puer aeternus affaire. No care. Would it be 2 much 2 ask if I wanted this stuff off my mind? I need empty servants 2 drain my head.
America’s cancer is just a bad influence 4 u ppl. Any further explanation? No talent, no future, weird disease have lead me 2 this
In the end, just lines in blood…colored blog. We’ve been taught and we’ve witnessed it can be changed.
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1 last thing. The farm is taking over.
Luckily, sanity still reigns within Los Iluminados. Hopefully it won’t become an Orbis Unumly world order. Will it?
Wonder what will happen 2 those who won’t worship farmville’s might?
Los Iluminados 