Los iluminados

React ? No, that's way 2 teeny 4 me. This kind of feelings well i guess...

 Besides I have lost sense about good and evil, proper and not proper. I kinda still got some enlightenment

Lingerin in the edges of my mind.

I’ve tried 2 consider this as something relevant… I decided I shall not 'cause would b an extra effort without profits. Ppl will never fully get Los Iluminados principles. Well let’s say Roger Myers Sr.’s twisted motto.

Not important @ all 4 my thx, I just hope there’ll b the same indifference in case it happens all the way around.

Next week will b nice since I won’t b workin, I only wish this cold 2 b banished into

We live... we die

 Now everything makes u wonder what for, why… u know some shit like that. Why do I bother myself considerin spellin and style when I’m writing lousy posts 4 a useless blog? Question should b why do I keep writin nocturne kiddish bs?

What can I get from teachin 4 really and I mean REALLY retarded so-called students? Question should b why do I teach in the 1^st place…

There’s no hope in this place due its new management and I’m still here...

hUevAEM, did i spell it right? U know Mex's ed...

Why am I still takin drugs if I’m gonna die prematurely anyway? Question should b why I haven’t died yet? No one would care...

Messages as bridges. Bridges made of the most fragile and stupid ‘material’… Charlie knows.

We r not gonna change anything especially in this country. So who cares if u litter or if u save power?  As I said no purpose…

What do I want my thesis 4? Question should b, why did I study there? I was warned but I didn’t take it 4 real… I should have joined the US army 6 years ago.

Anyway

Disclaimer: Dear Mr. Don John Kramer, despite what it seems, I am not being disrespectful. I graciously accept and value blessings. The side I don’t like is the part of feeling blue, u know depressed due constant, daily responsibilities, which in the end happen to b irrelevant.

Effects of economic breakdown

Can’t understand the inhabitants of this shity country, I’m tired of everything in here. Already discussed fleeing… Mexico lerdo y mezquino.

 No guarantees, that’s what I get. So I guess some lies within our souls. Secrets and desires which r not meant 2 b shared. I haven’t achieved anything good but memories. Different kinds of archives stored in my spoiled brain cells. Spoiled like rich kids.

U 2 guys have described something

I don’t wanna b analyzed. In case everything keeps failing, guess it’s time 2 save 4 my Trondheim ticket, Trondheim is where I can plan a murder and keep my religion… I’d miss my Los Iluminados

Question should be, who?

Then my genes speak out loud and remind me why

I will continue fighting carbamazapine effects, stupid shit which depresses me everyday. D tox program´s goin on and will proceed 2 phase 2 next January. Kinda worried about a wandering brown spot in my right vision though.

In the mean time, blurry goals, uncertain future comin on… Mediocre yes , I’ll b watching

After all I don’t wanna lose anymore. Worry not 4 I have been doomed since the beginning. Free will. No light @ the end of the tunnel, no order nor balance in this insane world of ours.

Question is

No fair

I guess that’s right, it seems nothing is gonna stop us now. I have had 2 deal with great misery but now it seems it’s over.

Class @ 7 is not a good thing 2 do especially now in Toluca’s freezing cold. Til now we have faced some rocks in the way, luckily we’ve managed 2 get by. It’s kinda sad though,

I haven’t been tru any kind of real hardship and I don’t wanna so it’s kinda hard 2 understand my folks in pain. Emptiness and sadness overwhelmin them. Perhaps it would b a good idea 4 them 2 join those islanders who sing and dance 24X7!! Not 4 me thx i'll take a raft out.

Not 4 me thanks u don’t have 2 sing 4 me. There’s no need 2 sing, is it?

What ? Wait i didn't get it!!

I despise such ridiculous behavior. There’s nothing better than a casual direct talk. If u happen 2 hide something use

4 instances livin through da Hood or the apparently senseless mission of foldin winged nessie like creatures…

Obviously the wings r under water surface and nessie flies Inverness @ night, haven't u heard?

what u try 2 say it’s encrypted but the good thing about this. Well I guess the author knows.

I know I can freely write in here, following the MSN Conduct code(sure…). Los iluminados have kept me sane and it has shown us my baie own ineptitude 2 understand my surroundings so as my poor English development. Nevertheless, no matter what’s goin on my cult has always reminded me of myself. Questions like who am I or why… r being answered every time I jot down a stupid post but with a baie cool pic of Pancha wearin sunglasses, or when I reread my old post noticing that somehow cut videos have 2 do with is written b4 them. I always thought I cut videos 4 with no purpose… 

Do u my friendly fellow reader really get this? Is there anyone who really get 2 read this? In that case u leave no choice but 2 wish u good luck tryin 2 understand the words of a madman...

Los iluminados is my church, the mirrored prince. In order 2 b sane and @ the same time

Chac Mol display has hurt my back greatly I guess along with some other activities, but it has been worth it. A year from now… unbelievable. I perfectly recollect that coke… but I guess nobody cares, I do. Time 2 celebrate. Despite i'm

U have been there with me, what i like the most is the thing u do...

U do understand me... Is that true ? I can’t imagine u reading this.

Then we had 2 deal with my not so beloved new managers

I never attended the army but there's no need 2 since i have 2 be nagged by attemp of Lt. I kinda try 2 present and @ the same time absent... in the end they'll find a way 2 make me do their thing. My fellow workers won't agree either but we all have 2 go with the flow.

I will try 2 survive tru my old Paideian system. It does work but u shouldn't be changin the rules everytime.

I was adviced 2 complain but i shall not. New policies which may seem stupid but I will do as told @ least 4 now...

Yet i can still do it my way, can't i?

I recollect Manolo's words full of wisdom...

I'll b missin a camp-like meetin... However it's my 1st bunny year.

1 month left...

A dark cold night, the ship led us 2 unknown shores where brown vampires sucked beer, zombies wandered in search 4 a good gulp. It was a bit strange ‘cause we also witnessed fairies,

 pirates(includin me, considerin it's the only time i can wear my tricornio

Harley Quinnsell

 Jigsaw 

and even a DBZ character

Anyway, that wasn’t a ghastly night, it was very bleak which in fact is very good. How come? Well it’s good ‘cause I got 2 criticize, makin fun of all subhuman kind of jerks who gathered in anisette-filled Halloween. @ least my disguise was cool, way better than those who won…

Crappy night when we got visited by The

Surrounded by losers and laughin out loud… u know SPLLA.

Si si ya t vi muy bonito...We were cornered but tired of dealing with these pieces of shit… we decided 2 flee, luckily the back door was unlocked. No much joy within booze and dance. On top of that those gas machines messed up my throat, then we had quite an adventure tryin 2 get the car out.

Next morning I was informed that I’d b getting a new group 4 next week,

News which helped me with my stress problem it unleashed lots and lots of concerns, weird schedule but it doesn’t matter

What matters now is how 2 deal with…

I can’t deal very well with changing mood, how can u b frustrated and then happy?

I’m kinda curious about how she distorts human emotions… sometimes Monin and his world may wonder

but anyway it’s in the past now. Can’t wait 2 see her again. Those late night text messages worked fine. Picture this guys: u r kinda feelin blue or mad, what’s the perfect way 2 escape?

Use a goddamn vortex !! Charlie the unicorn IS disturbing!!

Finally I congratulate myself ‘cause I survived the experience, I had 33ct. seafood and I’m still alive!! All hail Waldo’s Mart!!

A facebook reminder on whom my friends supposedly r. Ares assisted that thought with a couple of Mexican pop-like sappy songs, accurate though. Yeah indeed I don’t know what really happened. A dream which kept me imprisoned a long time ago, now those days only dwell in the edges of my memory.

There was I all in a sudden surrounded by some strange feelings, decoding Anglo-saxon & always wondering about the existence of this kind of ppl. Serious stuff was goin on,

Only disgrace 2 depression itself, some ppl would surely state so but they don’t know how sinapsis works on a crazy loner such as myself. Was it really that bad? It was ok actually, but then I didn't give a shit like the others.

We all know we all commit mistakes. Can u guys tell me any memory which was happy 4 me @ that particular time? No satisfaction, witnessing human stupidity index @ its most. U know who

Darkseid is so goddamn right, what a waste of time... Idiot

Luckily i @ least I got 2 visit Vallarta and Guanajuato. Earning some bucks helping blind wanna be villagers, i also enjoyed to some extent Germany’s world cup.

Oh yeah now I remember some days filled with joy by that time, it was October 2006... An escape pod was offered 2 me

Hell yeah, I said yes, of course. Dianna’s advice was beyond perfection, no guilt. Set me free and gave me a slight ray of hope. A ray of enlightenment. The alternative? we had already foreseen it within my good old friend Alfred’s suffering. A victim was I, obviously this was planned and so I let things flow smoothly, nobody realized it was my plot

A year of success and travels. The slight hope was just esperanza, u may ask urselves which is the difference? ‘Hope’ is a gringo concept thus is a good thing, better in quality and likely 2 happen. On the other hand ‘esperanza’ is nothing but useless thoughts, waitin 4 never comin miracles. 4 that I dunno whether I should b thankful or not.  Had i stayed there, i wouldn't have met... Contradictory feelings yes, we can say that. Disillusioned with overconfidence but got rid of some old issues, try jottin down a balance and I guess we r even… why did God (¿?) bless (¿?)… u might recall all of the rest. Was it a good real scenario afterall?

Me? Nah, highly unlikely. Not yet...

 Therefore I used 2 think that was it, came back 2 fulfill my revenge, went on travellin and a bit of neuralizin myself, this last action changed my life. Why? Well the reasons may seem quite irrelevant but it was quite a good start. I noticed how I can use the darkseid (side?) 4 my snake sake. What am i capable 2 do?

Gotcha!! I’ll surely never understand why but I won’t complain about this, I will only accept it graciously as Dee said. A couple of sappy kiddish techniques and it worked, unbelievable…

I'd never believe i would dare 2 do so, best kiss ever... That's why i said 3 de octubre no se olvida... 11 months later have gone in a blink of an eye. Have been goin out with the most beautiful signorina since last November, I guess I’ve done a good job. 

Yeah we can say, sometimes it’s kinda impossible 2 tell what’s goin on in those labyrinth-like mysterious lands where I have got lost a couple of times, I think they call them…

Everythin will b fine if we keep everything fair, justice & revenge… My histrionic abilities r quite remarkable but that’s not the point. The key in here is 2 enjoy all the good things she’s brought 2 me.

It’s done. Crisis, not paid job and new jerk management @ CILC haven’t been enough 2 stop this year’s travel.

No care about critics